You know that giddiness you feel when you go to a restaurant and the menu is so awesome you can’t even handle it? In fact, it’s so awesome, you are utterly paralyzed with indecision because you want 9 different things. And then the “Oh my God, I’m finally out for dinner and I really want this to be good, so I cannot mess this up!” panic sets in. You know that panic. The time-honored dilemma of rushing to order when the waiter appears FAR too soon, and you say “I need a few more minutes!” or “I’ll order last!”, and the next ten minutes are spent completely consumed with…”I should have gotten the fried chicken and waffles instead of the croque madame!” (real examples from my brunch choices the other day)
Well, this phenomenon happens to me in practically EVERY situation life throws at me. It is so pathetic.
Case in point – Gift cards.
I am in possession of a ridiculous amount of gift cards* that I’ve received over time and have failed to put to good use. These cards are for the usual suspects – fabulous home decor stores, clothing stores, and restaurants. But for some reason, I cannot cash them in. You may ask…”Why Lindsay? What in tarnation is wrong with you?!” The answer is simple. It’s the Candy Store Effect.
I’m that proverbial kid in the candy store that is literally frozen by choice…by decision. My old friends tease me all the time for my unmatched indecisiveness about absolutely anything. Lately, I counter such observations accusations with…”Hey! I bought my wedding dress in TWO hours – the first one I tried on!!” See – here it is! Isn’t she grand?
Apparently this achievement doesn’t hold up. People are not as impressed as I am with this fact.
I have a J. Crew summer rewards gift card that expires in 2 days, and I cannot for the life of me decide to what to buy. All the pretty new fall clothes and accessories are just too wonderful! How am I supposed to just pick a few things?! This is FALL FASHION people!!! I have been on J. Crew’s website 19 times in the past week. It’s not looking good.
This same behavior has hampered my efforts to decorate our home. How can it possibly take 6 weeks to pick out ivory curtains? And there are only two stores in the mix. I mean, C’MON! This. Is. Hopeless. The possibilities are endless. The privilege immense. And I am sucking every last bit of joy out of the experience of FREE STUFF.
I love fashion and I love home design… a lot. But you would never know it by looking at me or my house, because I never really do anything to reflect my love for these things. Shallow as it is, maybe this will be the fire under my bottom to inspire change for me. Maybe I should take this opportunity to actually dress the way I want to dress. Or begin to decorate my home the way I’ve always wanted. Like a kid in the candy store always figures out – you just have to take the plunge into the first candy jar (Swedish berries – my fav candy store candy), and then everything will work itself out.
I just need a few more minutes.
*Note to friends/family who like to give me gift cards. Don’t let this deter you. They WILL get used…eventually). 😉